It's so near, it's tomorrow

I'm feeling all nervous, anxious, nausea... all at once which is so wrong at this time. I shouldn't have let these feelings taken me for a ride. Be strong... mentally, so I can conquer the butterflies in my stomach.

I'm counting down to my biggest, longest, toughest hike ever... नेपाल (aka NEPAL, see my level of preparation? lol), here I come!! I personally think that I didn't train enough...1 more day to the Himalayan land and all I need to do now is to get myself mentally ready. *Breathing in and out slowly* ... Strong mind will keep me survive the 12 days trek. When I look at my checklist, I feel like killing myself... the list got longer and longer and it never ended...Hope the trekking journey don't give me the never ending feeling.

This is my trekking itinerary from the guide. Will try to google the map and see how challenging its gonna be. 

This is the closest map I can find...hmmmm....really interesting



Then I realized it wasn't just the hike that got me nervous. Damn, it's the phobia of flying long hour on Airasia. Yes, AA flies Kathmandu on AirasiaX. I know 4.5 hrs ain't long haul flight but with AA, anything more than 1 hr is long ... for me. I keep reminding myself to  take a glass of hot milk before boarding, (just in case you asked, milk actually has calming effect) to keep myself calm. To be honest, I will pop on some pills too.... yes to that extend, my fear of flying. The fear developed 2 years ago while flying to HCMC. I was sort of a frequent flyer and things were ok prior to the HCMC trip. Now, I'm minimizing my holiday due to this reason.

Back to Nepal, clothing and necessities packed but my Gregory Sage 45L is just not big enough. Not sure is the size or my packing skill that matters. Will try to reorganize the stuff and hopefully (fingers crossed) everything will go into the backpack as planned. It's this big ok....(see pic below)

I have packed light, bringing minimal shirts and pants...and no beauty products ok. Only a tube of aloe vera for all purposes. Shit, I'm gonna look like zombie for next 2 weeks. If any friends bumped into me at Kathmandu or Langtang, I doubt they can recognize me. Lol... Joking la... It's not like I always dress to nines and suddenly surviving on a tube of aloe vera gel.

Looking at the time now, I have less than 24hrs to pack and bringing my mental to the next level... lol tell me what is next level please...In fact, at this hour tomorrow, I will be touching my feet on Nepal ground.

Let's pray everything will be alright. I don't want to catch any flu or altitude sickness. Feeling dizzy and nausea is the last thing I want while hiking in thin air... and of cos no diarrhea please...Most importantly I hope my feet and knees will be on my side throughout the journey. Dear God, I thank you in advance for not letting these little little things holding me back from completing my journey.

Now, few last things to do... check on the weather forecast, reading thru the wikipedia, checking on wikitravel and also what to shop at Nepal. Shopping brings smile or rather makes a girl giggles and forgetting their fear...hehehee...

Wish me luck...more bout the hike when I come back :D Adios...

Gratitude #2

I have couple of things to be thankful for today. But for the first time in my life (I think it is the first time), i would like to THANK GOD (although I have always blurted.. Oh God, Thank God, OMG... but these were my usual spontaneous exclaimations, and I didn't mean anything tho). I'm religionless although, I was brought up in TAOism family. We pray to the God Guan Yin, the Sky God and others and ancestors on certain dates in a year such as Chinese New Year, 1st and 15th day of Chinese calendar, Ghost Festival, Ancestors' anniversaries, and so on. My parents will burn the joss sticks every morning and evening and pray. On the other hand, I only do it on  special occasions if so happen I'm back to parents' home. Otherwise I'm just some useless person when comes to God and religion. I do go to temples once in a while, not because I've done wrong doings and ask for forgiveness, but rather I was awakened sometimes and thought I need to so... ok enough of bullshitting myself and others...

Here is the main thing. I just called Lionking and he informed that his dad is finally doing well and conscious after the bypass surgery 2 days ago.. He has been unconscious since then. Thank God really, very much... I really meant it from the bottom of my heart. His mom was praying hard and she told me to pray too, when the Dad was experiencing some internal bleeding after the surgery. The blood pressures have gone up and down and only God knows (and the hospital staff too) how much blood has been wasted. I saw a big cylinder of blood by the bed side.. it makes me want to faint right there ><

Back to when his Mom asked me to pray too... the parents are Christian so I guess they pray to Jesus for speedy recovery.. But me being me...how should I pray?? and to whom should I asked for speedy recovery?? I was stoned for a moment. If the environment wasn't so stern, I would have jokingly ask, Auntie I dunno how to pray leh...or I will say, Auntie I usually pray to the Sky God with joss stick burning, and now there isn't any joss stick and I'm inside ICU, where's the sky? where's the guan yin statue, how to pray?? But i just nodded when she asked because I've never seen such a worrying faces and the Lionking was so worry he kinda broke down. My god, I have never seen this side of him and I felt sorry and erased all the stupid thoughts of asking silly questions.

In case you readers dunno what is joss stick, here's a picture for your reference. Its the tiny stick that you burn and it has this smok-y smell (nonsense, all burnt stuff will have smok-y scent) ...which is quite pleasant scent that I like.. then after you said your prayer, you will stick them into the pot (big and small) full of  ashes. The ash came from the burnt stick itself :)

Pic of some chinese kids with joss stick from Google

Secondly, I would like to thank my colleague Anne for going lunch with me. I hardly go lunch nowadays with colleagues because i want to eat healthy and I don't want to waste too much time going out and end up eating expensive unhealthy food. Thanks to the many youngsters in the lunch bunch...they have no sense of being healthy yet cos when you are young you can eat all the junk and still looking healthy and never put on weight. Yes, no lie, I went thru this stage before and look at me now, the junk is slowly showing themselves now on and in my body and face. So, say no to unhealthy food before it's too late.

I realized I talked a bit too much... The point for thanking Anne is because, after been trying to eat healthy and ditch my lunch bunch, or rather I got ditched by them for being anti social...lol, whatever... I don't really have lunch mate now. My bunch left without asking me anymore knowing my answer will always be "It's OK, you people go.. I have prepared my lunch". So today, I have no lunch prepared and I have sudden urge for eating healthy big breakfast (pls take note: big breakfast has never been healthy anyway). So Anne was kind enough to ask me if I want to go Antipodean for lunch and I was like... OMG, my wish was granted. Again, it's proven Law of Attraction works when we try. Antipoden has one of the best Big Breakfast ever. 

Sorry, this picture doesn't do justice for the food. The actual food looks way more delicious than this. And I had my cuppa Latte... so yummy... so heavenly. And I'm so sleepy wide awake now that I think I should blog to keep me awake while waiting for time to go off.

Thirdly, thank you Prophet Muhammad...it was Your Birthday yesterday on Thursday hence was declared public holiday. And today is Friday which usually is a dreadful jam day but i noticed 1/3 of the colleagues on my floor took a day off for the long weekend. And so happen next Monday is Thaipusam Day so it means another Public Holiday and its a longer than long weekend. Oh i just love Holidays and Thank You Malaysia for having so many holidays in a row .... :D So many holidays and I almost forgot to wake up and come to work this morning. Lol... Nobody to be blamed in this case, except you know who... lol

Gratitude #1

This will be my first gratitude post after i have sort of promised myself to feel grateful and write a Thank You note. I guess I shall do it on weekly basis.

My first Thank You Note goes to Mrs Mohiuddin and Mamanurins... ahaha.. i just love to call them with these names. Thank you for i) offering me free swimming lesson, ii) your patience with the water phobic, iii) for learning and swimming together, iv) the delicious Nandos dinner and last but not least v) the snoopy henna on my ankle. 

For the first time i don't have fear going into the pool. You gals rock!! You make me feel like a dolphin.  Maybe dolphin is a bit exaggerating but who cares, I want to swim like dolphin one day :D 

Then of course the nice artwork on my ankle. See, so cute I will die. Who can draw so freely without practice and the outcome is so snoopy ... Lol.. what kinda compliment is that

I don't have picture for our Nandos dinner. Guessed we were all too hungry to even snap a picture of the chicken platters. It was good after all. Not to mention the 2 lil angels who ate quietly. Poor things, they must be really hungry as it already past their dinner time. We eat earlier next time.

Love hanging out with you gals. More workout and healthy meal next round ok. Ciao ;)